Lies

How do you deal with lies? What if all your life is all you know is lies and you repeat them to your self one day after next that in time when someone tells you otherwise there is no way on earth you can actually believe that because it sounds so absurd to even hear that from someone else. And what if you try to change that what happens then? Do we ignore the bad things that happened in the past and try to bury them inside as far down as you can put it. Or is there another answer to the past. What if the past is filled with lies that you repeat over and over again? and what if that if u wanted help from that you had to look for it and reach out and be scared and cry even though it might be against what you were told. I wish that i could say something and no one really gets affended but i know otherwise. This is my space to write and whether people read this or not i really do not care. I didnt create this so that people would read but only so that i could write what is hurting me inside or what i feel in the moment of writing this. This is about truth.I spend to much time worrying whether someone will get mad or angry at me for just writing my inmost thoughts that for so long i tried to bury and that no matter how much i write or anything else they surface up because i havent dealt with them. I always thought counselors are bad but i think they are not so bad if you have the right one.

I will not forget what happened and i know the memories will always be with me no matter where i go.

More Steps in a Journey

Psalm 141

A psalm of David.

¹ O Lord, I am calling to you. Please hurry!
Listen when I cry to you for help!
² Accept my prayer as incense offered to you,
and my upraised hands as an evening offering.

³ Take control of what I say, O Lord,
and guard my lips.
⁴ Don’t let me drift toward evil
or take part in acts of wickedness.
Don’t let me share in the delicacies
of those who do wrong.

⁵ Let the godly strike me!
It will be a kindness!
If they correct me, it is soothing medicine.
Don’t let me refuse it.

But I pray constantly
against the wicked and their deeds.
⁶ When their leaders are thrown down from a cliff,
the wicked will listen to my words and find them true.
⁷ Like rocks brought up by a plow,
the bones of the wicked will lie scattered without burial.^a]">[a]

⁸ I look to you for help, O Sovereign Lord.
You are my refuge; don’t them kill me.
⁹ Keep me from the traps they have set for me,
from the snares of those who do wrong.
¹⁰ Let the wicked fall into their own nets,
but let me escape.

Life goes on but with every step we take we learn something new both about God and yourselves.

What is Love?

how do you define love? And what exactly love is? So many times the world tells us what love is. It is something you get and you win it. It is a game and if it doesnt work out you just keep moving on to another and another and another. But what kind of love is that? Why does love has to be when the person will just end up getting hurt? What kind of love is that? And where do you stand? What are you gona believe about love? Is it gona be just another game for you? Is it where you are going to get something out of it? But what are you going to get out of it? And is it that worth it? Is it worth it to get hurt over and over again? Are you willing to take tht risk?

Why Ignore?

We understand certain things but mostly we strive to even understand a slit bit of information we receive. We, to ourselves think that we are all that and can do anything on our own with no one elses help and that it will all be good. But what if deep inside you know that you cannot make it on your own? And what if what you are doing may not be right or wrong? Who will you listen to? Your pride that puts people down? Your jealousy that despices people? Your anger that you take it out on other people? Who? Or do you listen to someone completely different? Someone who has no SIN. DO YOU LISTEN TO JESUS? Do you have to say whatever is on your mind? Do you have to pretend that you are always right? Can we take advise from a younger person without getting angry? Not only are we aragont but we see the truth and what we do with is FORGET about it period. We dont want the truth we rather have a 'satisfying lie' that might cause the problems in one way or another. How can we ignore the truth? How can we see someone who needs HELP and totally ignore that? But a better question is why? But worse dont just say 'I am going to HELP!' but actually do it. You see a persons pains and scars yet you ignore them. why are we IGNORING PAIN, HURT AND SUFFERING? WHY?

PBU and Soccer

This is the beginning at least for my college life. Soccer is taking up my life right now and i have three practises in one day. So i dont really have much time to do anything. So i want to keep the family updated on what is going on at school and this is probably the best way at least for me. I am really not near my phone a lot so i will try to answer my phone but i might be in class or soccer. I am tired but i just want to say that even though im still here. I love you parents so much and i really want you to know that. and i will try to call you once in awhile.

Slow Fade

Listening

I look around and i see a little girl...sweet as can be....stuck in a place where she cant really get out. Her peace is shaken and is no more...stuck in middle of fights that she didnt start... stuck and not able to say anything that it hurts her more than she can say yet her love surprises me ...even though she is hurt inside she still loves the person who hurts her emotionally.....Can you learn something from a 5 year old? Is that even possible? Well the answer is yes! yes YES YES YES YES....She loves yet gets none in return...

I was ready to quit...yet she showed me that perseverence is the best thing ever...all i could do is cry for her....yet she comes up to me and says "your ok" and only tears came down because of this little girl just telling me that im ok.

My Art

Kansas City Pics

Bible reading

Romans 2:1, 12

"you, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things."

"All who sin apart from the law will also perish apart from the law, and all who sin under the law will be judged by the law."

Psalm 10:16-18

" The LORD is King for ever and ever;

the nations will perish from his land.

You hear, O LORD, the desire of the afflicted;
you encourage them, and you listen to their cry,

defending the fatherless and the oppressed,
in order that man, who is of the earth, may terrify no more."

Proverbs 19:9

"A false witness will not go unpunished,

and he who pours out lies will perish."

Psalm 8

A psalm of David.

1 O LORD, our Lord,
how majestic is your name in all the earth!
You have set your glory
above the heavens.
2 From the lips of children and infants
you have ordained praise [b]
because of your enemies,
to silence the foe and the avenger.

3 When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,

4 what is man that you are mindful of him,
the son of man that you care for him?

5 You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings [c]
and crowned him with glory and honor.

6 You made him ruler over the works of your hands;
you put everything under his feet:

7 all flocks and herds,
and the beasts of the field,

8 the birds of the air,
and the fish of the sea,
all that swim the paths of the seas.

9 O LORD, our Lord,
how majestic is your name in all the earth!

New Poem

Memories

Flowing
Going
Faster now
Its all around
Its hitting
From left
And right
Sometimes it
Doesn’t stop
Just comes and comes
Feels like eternity
Satan uses it
As a threshold
But Jesus heals
Them
All you have to do
Is ask
You look up
With fear trembling
All around
You hear Jesus say
“You’re okay and you’re safe”
only tears drop
for you have never heard anyone
say that
you think and doubt
But Jesus just keeps telling you the same truth
Over and over again
Until it sinks in
And you finally hope
And in the end you have peace

Revelation

Im on fire for JESUS. How much more can i say? I love JESUS more than i could put down in words. The past year has been rough but JESUS by being his POWERFUL and MIGHTY self has healed me in a way most people would have thought it was impossible. My heart feels peace.... And the past well its in the past. JESUS' power is amazing and i dont have words for it. I just don't. So i woke up in the morning knowing that during the night the Lord clearly said "Be in my WORD!!!!" So i woke up in peace and it just hit me "yes i need to be in the WORD" and then i remembered that while at Fascinate 2009 i had bought a book called The New Rebellion Handbook with resources there. So i looked up and saw the website i needed to use. So i went on the website and just started to read the WORD OF GOD. Read. Read and Read. And i was just filled with that peace that long had been gone.

Psalm 7

A shiggaion^{a]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[a]} of David, which he sang to the LORD concerning Cush, a Benjamite.

¹ O LORD my God, I take refuge in you;
save and deliver me from all who pursue me,

² or they will tear me like a lion
and rip me to pieces with no one to rescue me.

³ O LORD my God, if I have done this
and there is guilt on my hands-

⁴ if I have done evil to him who is at peace with me
or without cause have robbed my foe-

⁵ then let my enemy pursue and overtake me;
let him trample my life to the ground
and make me sleep in the dust.
Selah

⁶ Arise, O LORD, in your anger;
rise up against the rage of my enemies.
Awake, my God; decree justice.

⁷ Let the assembled peoples gather around you.
Rule over them from on high;

⁸ let the LORD judge the peoples.
Judge me, O LORD, according to my righteousness,
according to my integrity, O Most High.

⁹ O righteous God,
who searches minds and hearts,
bring to an end the violence of the wicked
and make the righteous secure.

¹⁰ My shield ^{b]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[b]} is God Most High,
who saves the upright in heart.

¹¹ God is a righteous judge,
a God who expresses his wrath every day.

¹² If he does not relent,
he ^{c]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[c]} will sharpen his sword;
he will bend and string his bow.

¹³ He has prepared his deadly weapons;
he makes ready his flaming arrows.

¹⁴ He who is pregnant with evil
and conceives trouble gives birth to disillusionment.

¹⁵ He who digs a hole and scoops it out
falls into the pit he has made.

¹⁶ The trouble he causes recoils on himself;
his violence comes down on his own head.

¹⁷ I will give thanks to the LORD because of his righteousness
and will sing praise to the name of the LORD Most High.

And throughout the day i went back to the same four passages i read in the morning. Before i wasnt able to give God even a minute of my time like God didnt matter at all but since the conference He has changed me to a point where no one else would understand because they have to experience the change in order to really understand. And im not saying that im perfect im just dwelling more in the WORD and spending more time with JESUS.... The only person who is perfect is JESUS.

Love of JESUS is so GREAT! Sometimes that is the ONLY thing that gets me through the day. And you realize that YOU CANT MAKE IT ON YOUR OWN. We live and go on with our life yet JESUS is constantly on the pursuit of you.

No standing Back

Satan has a way of just twisting things around making like its suppose to be like this but its not the truth.

Truth gets twisted and a person gets confused and i have been there so many times. Lies become reality but its shouldnt be like that. Because truth should be our reality but usually its not. Truth is what i live for and im not gona stand for lies that Satan tried to put in my head all the time just because i went through a rough time in my life. I will not stand and be put down by this and i will fight because i know that Jesus would provide the strength.

Father Of Lies

Kylie's joy was stolen by the Father of Lies Satan. I hate him. I mean look at this little girl who is just as happy as she can be and the next Satan steals the joy which makes me so angry beyond belief. This child didnt do anything and doesnt deserve the torments of the Devil. she is a precious child of God, a princess who is loved by God. yet today Satan stole the joy from her and im not okay with that and i fought him for her because i love her too. She is a precious child of God and Satan has no right to bother her at all. YOu know what i am tired of just seeing Satan destroy things that doesnt belong to him. He is a monster. He has no right. I hate Satan because he destroys the joy of everyone including this little girl. I wont just watch him destroy the happy child. I wont.

John 8:43-45 (New International Version)

⁴³Why is my language not clear to you? Because you are unable to hear what I say. ⁴⁴You belong to your father, the devil, and you want to carry out your father's desire. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. ⁴⁵Yet because I tell the truth, you do not believe me!

But God is strong and there was a victory for the Father of Lies had no victory for with Jesus there is always victory because i know because its the TRUTH. Satan hates the truth. He underestimates the power of the Saviour Jesus Christ. Power of love. Power of truth and most of all power of mercy and grace. I will not stand and see Satan destroy the joy of the ones Jesus loves. Satan you go away from here and never return. You do not belong here Satan. So in Jesus name shut up and go away. You do not belong in this house. This is the house of God.

Psalm 52:7-9 (New International Version)

⁷ "Here now is the man
who did not make God his stronghold
but trusted in his great wealth
and grew strong by destroying others!"

⁸ But I am like an olive tree
flourishing in the house of God;
I trust in God's unfailing love
for ever and ever.

⁹ I will praise you forever for what you have done;
in your name I will hope, for your name is good.
I will praise you in the presence of your saints.

Psalm 86:14-16 (New International Version)

¹⁴ The arrogant are attacking me, O God;
a band of ruthless men seeks my life—
men without regard for you.

¹⁵ But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.

¹⁶ Turn to me and have mercy on me;
grant your strength to your servant
and save the son of your maidservant.

Amos 5:14-16 (New International Version)

¹⁴ Seek good, not evil,
that you may live.
Then the LORD God Almighty will be with you,
just as you say he is.

¹⁵ Hate evil, love good;
maintain justice in the courts.
Perhaps the LORD God Almighty will have mercy
on the remnant of Joseph.

¹⁶ Therefore this is what the Lord, the LORD God Almighty, says:
"There will be wailing in all the streets
and cries of anguish in every public square.
The farmers will be summoned to weep
and the mourners to wail.

Romans 8:38-39 (New International Version)

³⁸For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,^{a]" style="font-size: 0.75em; line-height: 0.5em; ">[a]} neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, ³⁹neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Scripture on witchcraft

Micah 5:11-13

I will destroy the cities of your land
and tear down all your strongholds.

I will destroy your witchcraft
and you will no longer cast spells.

I will destroy your carved images
and your sacred stones from among you;
you will no longer bow down
to the work of your hands.

Nahum 3:3-5

Charging cavalry,
flashing swords
and glittering spears!
Many casualties,
piles of dead,
bodies without number,
people stumbling over the corpses-

all because of the wanton lust of a harlot,
alluring, the mistress of sorceries,
who enslaved nations by her prostitution
and peoples by her witchcraft.

"I am against you," declares the LORD Almighty.
"I will lift your skirts over your face.
I will show the nations your nakedness
and the kingdoms your shame.

Galatians 5:19-21 (New International Version)

¹⁹The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; ²⁰idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions ²¹and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

Miracles

Miracles of life are might be the greatest you can experience of the power of God. And sometimes we say that we dont feel like living and i have done it just because what i went through but i realize that the stuff i went through made me a stronger person. Maybe we look for something in life that sometimes we never find on our own. Sometimes we think that life is for us to take away but its not. We pass judgements on life and how people live. And begin to live life negatively because that is what the world shows us. We see that the world is just bad and that we are stuck in this world that live is degraded so much that we decide how life should go and when something unexpected happens we blame God for that. Life is a miracle.

Job 5:9

"He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted."

We look at the life around us and i dont think we could really fathom how great our God is. I mean look at a little baby being born or even the mighty ocean or the greatness of the nature itself.

How Great is Our God by Chris Tomlin

VERSE(1):
The splendor of a King,
Clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice,
All the earth rejoice
He wraps himself in light,
And darkness tries to hide
And trembles at his voice,
And trembles at his voice

CHORUS(1):
How great is our God,
sing with me
How great is our God,
and all will see
How great, How great
Is our God

VERSE(2):
Age to age he stands
And time is in His Hands
Beginning and the End,
Beginning and the End
The Godhead, Three in one
Father, Spirit, Son
The Lion and the Lamb,
The Lion and the Lamb

CHORUS(1):
How great is our God,
sing with me
How great is our God,
and all will see
How great, How great
Is our God

CHORUS(2)
Name above all names
You are Worthy of all praise
and My heart will sing how great
Is our God
(x2)

CHORUS(1):
How great is our God,
Sing with me
How great is our God,
and all will see
How great, How great
Is our God


CHORUS(1):
How great is our God,
Sing with me
How great is our God,
and all will see
How great, How great
Is our God

This is a poem i wrote:

In life things are bound to happen

At least I know they do

We look at life without value to it

And go on living like we did

Forgetting the things that really matter

Forgetting that life was meant to live

And deep down deep life goes on

Only you wish that it could stop

You no longer want to take the time

To think about the issues of life

You just want it to be easy

So that no obstacles could stop you

Indeed you just live out your life

Holding to nothing

Just doing what you always do

Not caring who it hurts

Your hurting but you don’t care

Because your numb to that

You say that it doesn’t matter

At night you cannot sleep

But why should that matter?

You’re not good to anyone

You do what you do

You hope to get there one day

But today is not the answer

And maybe you will be too late

But why would you even care….

Maybe life is greater than you know

Especially knowing the Creator

Just look and see

That God is good

And just stop trying to say something you know isn’t true

Trust

Hope

Believe….

Dedication

Ariena

Just being Sily hahah

I guess sometimes i just want to be silly in some ways although it seems like you are always silly around little kids. But its fun anyway. Hence the picture of me just being weird with little Kylie. And for me at those silly moments could be memorable because you are just having fun and not worrying about anything else than that you know. I can be the weirdest person when im around little ones but its all part of the fun you know. And maybe we could pretend that we are just normal but what is normal? I dont think there is a normal because each one of us has a flaw no matter what we do because we are sinners. 

Psalm 139

O LORD, you have searched me 
and you know me.

 You know when I sit and when I rise; 

       you perceive my thoughts from afar.

You discern my going out and my lying down; 

  you are familiar with all my ways.

Before a word is on my tongue 

 you know it completely, O LORD.

You hem me in—behind and before; 

you have laid your hand upon me.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, 

 too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit? 

Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there; 

 if I make my bed in the depths,  you are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn, 

 if I settle on the far side of the sea,

even there your hand will guide me, 

 your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me 

and the light become night around me,"

even the darkness will not be dark to you; 

the night will shine like the day, 

 for darkness is as light to you

 For you created my inmost being; 

you knit me together in my mother's womb

 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; 

your works are wonderful,

I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you 

when I was made in the secret place. 

When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

 your eyes saw my unformed body. 
       All the days ordained for me 
       were written in your book 
       before one of them came to be.

 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! 
       How vast is the sum of them!

 Were I to count them, 
       they would outnumber the grains of sand. 
       When I awake, 
       I am still with you.

 If only you would slay the wicked, O God! 
       Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

 They speak of you with evil intent; 
       your adversaries misuse your name.

 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD, 
       and abhor those who rise up against you?

 I have nothing but hatred for them; 
       I count them my enemies.

 Search me, O God, and know my heart; 
       test me and know my anxious thoughts.

 See if there is any offensive way in me, 
       and lead me in the way everlasting.

Message to the Parents! I love you!

Where do i begin? I could really begin any where. But my biggest message to you mom and dad is that i LOVE YOU. and yes i dont show it all the time and i admit its really hard for me because of the past. Parts you already know and parts i hide from everyone because its too hard to share it with anyone. sometimes i just hide the pain so much that enables you to see me as the most wrekless, angry and stubborn child and im so sorry about that. The truth is that i love you guys so much and i wish i could show that even more but because im in fear all the time of the same things happening to me as they did about 17 years ago i am enable to come and have that relationship with you  that should be between a parent and a daughter. And i am so sorry. Trust me when i tell you that i am working on it and trying to move past the one thing that keeps down in the dumps. And i know you're gona ask well how can we help? And there is a way you could. Prayer. Prayer is amazing because it will happen whether you will see it right away or not. I am so sorry. And i hope you can forgive me. I love you! 

The Word of Life

Psalm 27:1

"The Lord is my light and salvation

whom shall i fear?

The Lord is the stronghold of my life

of whom shall i be afraid?"

Psalm 34

"I will bless the Lord at ALL times

His praise shall continually be in my mouth

My soul makes its boast in the LORD

Let the HUMBLE hear and be glad

Oh MAGNIFY the LORD w/ me

and let us exalt his name together!

What you want in life?

Your happiness how do you find it? It is not easily done. You can keep searching and searching and doing things that you want but ultimately you will be hitting walls over and over again. So whats the point in that? We think happiness is having a lot of something but its not. To us happiness means that we are happy and not the people around us but what if happiness can be something that you can make others around you happy. What if there is a bigger purpose of happiness than that what we think it is. Imagine a child afraid of something and so full of fear that the child isnt sure if they can trust you. But what if you can show the child the happiness he/she could have in Jesus. Think about it happiness really comes from God and its really a gift but through the fall that word is degraded so much that it becomes something that you want and it becomes me, me, and me. What about the rest of the world? What about them? They just become dust and no one. We make them that because we are concentrating on us and as long as we are happy why should we care about anyone else?

This selfish happiness just becomes nothing. YOu will feel so much better if you do something for someone else for once and not think about once. this isnt just to say hey your bad listen to this but actually its a reminder for me really and what i think about the subject of happiness but also for the people who read it and you can dismiss it altogether but i know the words are the words of truth. Happiness is so much more than making yourself feel good. Can you imagine how good you will feel if you actually make another happy? Let me give you an example:

I work with a little girl named Kylie who is just pushed around to much so i took her out one day to the creek near their house and just went on her level and we played and talked and her face was glowing with happiness that she even said "thank you" as i was walking back to my car with her. Not only did it warm my heart that she was happy but it also made her happy. It brings so much more joy to you and the other person. But there is no secret recipe and that i just cant explain to you. You just not think about self. That is all i could really say about how. Although the best way is to pray. YOu say "God help me to think about others before i think what i want." God really could help you with that so much more. I could go on and tell you how but ultimately you need God's help. Trust me. Everyone does.

I gotta go to bed cos it is like 11 at night. So if you have any thoughts let me know. Whether you agree or disagree. 

God's Faithfulness: what does it mean?

2 Thessalonians 3:3

"But the Lord is faithful. He will establish you and guard you against the evil one."

what does it mean when the verse says that the Lord is faithful? Faithfulness is true of one's word. Who really can hold that kind of a promise? And in this verse God promises to guard you against the evil one!!! What person can keep that? No human can fully do that! We are sinners so we cant keep a promise the full 100 % but only partial. We should rejoice that God can do this and is doing it whether we know it or not.

God cares for us more than we could ever think! He loves us sooo much yet most of the time we take it for granted. God cares so much and my words cant express that at all. My words are few yet God is this amazing God who is faithful 100%. We take so much for granted yet even with that God loves us and never stops loving us. Its his unconditional love.

Love

Some define it

As a game

But love

Is more 

than that

Its not just a game

Its more than that

It keeps me moving forward

This is what God gave me

even when i didnt deserve it

He loved me 

Before i even knew him

He found me

When i wasnt looking

Even before i knew light

He still loved it

His love is amazing

There is so much more said about God than i could say but his unconditional love is just amazing.

Where to now?

Thought you could do it all

Or so you thought

Roads are closing

Life is coming short

Your standing at the crossroads

With discions to make

So where do u turn

To whom to you go

And how far can you get

do you take the past 

Do you think you can make it on your own

But you know you are wrong

You need someone beside you

Now and forever

Yes your at the crossroads but its never too

Late to take the hand 

Of the person who can guide you

To the light and away from the darkness

And with Him you dont have to fear

Fear turns into love

Love perseveres

And you take a step forward and remember

the purpose

your life

and how he changed it

You turn and see

the past in the dust behind you

and its no longer following you

You seem to feel regretful of it

Not sure you want to make it

But knowing you must 

You take the first step

A step toward freedom

love

away from fear

step toward safety

It is a step of courage

And as you take it

You face change

No longer do you have to blame yourself

Your face glees with joy

Give Your Life

Give Your Life

Life was broken

Yet you made it whole

Life was painful

Yet you brought purpose out of pain

To you nothing can run from

To you all belongs

You made it all

And as we see your mercy

I get up and dance for joy

For where would i be without you

Nowhere

When im in pain who can i run to?

The answer is YOU

YOU found me before i found you

You held me close

When people just disappeared from me

You were there

Even through the darkest times

You didnt let go 

So i give my life 

To you

Oh

Jesus

Sweet Sweet

Merciful

Just

and

Loving

i

love

but you

Loved me first

so 

Thank You!

Fight Till You Win

My life is a chaos or at least it used to be! The truth is that im leaving the past life behind me where it belongs. I am tired of waking up everyday and going through the motions of what people expect of me and then deep down struggling with the past itself and maybe it wont ever go away but i have a great God to rely on! Why should i have to carry what my dad did? Why should i have to live in that bondage? My dad lied to me over and over again. But no more! I will not be giving this to Satan to use for his own because Satan would love me to be stuck in the past and live in it. but enough is enough. There is purpose in life but Satan uses my past to keep me from living the purpose of my life. What does God say who i am?

1. Proclaimer of Truth

2.  Compassion

3. Ability for Order

4. Heart of Worship

5. Gift of Mercy

6. Intercession

7. Generous Giftgiver

8. Peacemaker

9. Prayer warrior

10. Dancer

Why should i let Satan take that away by a past that was long time ago? I didnt make the choices of abuse my dad did and he took everything away from me. Choices. But Jesus gave that back to me. He loved me more than my dad would ever love me or care for me. I realized that i have to give my dad to the Lord and let God handle my dad and not me trying to protect him from something that he actually dilebaretely did. Whether he meant it or not is out of question now. He made me believe that it was my fault but that is coming from Satan who is the "FATHER OF LIES" but i know the truth and the truth rings in my ears like no other that Jesus is stronger than Satan or anyone else. Satan wants to steal the joy but you know what i will fight him for that because im not making the same mistake again and with Jesus at my side i dont have to. 

So where do u find the truth? answer is easy the BIBLE!!!!!!!

Fight

Sometimes life doesnt make sense! And maybe sometimes it doesnt have to. We can go on and live on day by day and hour by hour or even minute by minute. What if there is something that you have to face on your own? What if there is no one to help you through that? And what if there is no choice but FIGHT!!! We go through life ignoring the most critical things in life like the fact that devils do exist and they are out there trying to destoy life even if it is destroyed for a minute or even just your whole life. Some choices have to be made. Some choices must be made. And most of them you have to make it on your own for no one can do it for you. NO ONE!!!!! No one can tell you what to believe in YOU have choose it! Do you believe in the CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE OR DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE LIAR OF THE UNIVERSE. Maybe you will try to forget the most painful moment of your life but you know what they will just catch up with you and you will be back where you started and i guess that is life but it doesnt have to be like that. You dont have to end up in the same position as always. You can choose to do the one thing: FIGHT! "fIGHT TILL YOU WIN"

Maybe life is painful. Sorrowful. Sad. Desparate. Frustrating. You can choose to just follow the one person who makes life so much more enjoyable even through the most difficult times. That person is no other than JESUS CHRIST.

You can choose to believe.

Jesus can fill you with such joy. Oh that glorious joy.

Earlier today, i was painting outside and Satan was just constantly saying "You are not good enough! You're not wanted here! You're just nothing! It was your fault. Everything you do is wrong. people you."

IN return Jesus with his sweetest voice was saying the opposite. "You're my daughter. Dont you for one second believe what he tells you. I love you! I care. Everything will be okay. Trust me."

And you know what you just take the hand of Jesus and he will lead you to the most amazing place of joy. Beyond your imagination. And all i could do was dance with joy. Dance to the Lord. There i was painting and dancing and having fun as i am working on a project. And no longer did i had fear any more. It was like it never existed all because i trusted the sweet voice of Jesus! I took the step and followed the voice of Jesus. My mighty King Jesus.

And as Jesus led me Satan was just standing on the road alone and angry. Because he lost. I heard him scream but the more i followed Jesus the safer i felt. And he safely guided me. And he is still here. Saying "write your story" "tell the world" "just do it" "dont worry about your feelingS"

It is almost 1 am in the morning and here i am writing. Writing the story of the truth. Story of what happened that opened my eyes to a new way of looking at things. Fear well its on the dusty road along with Satan himself. It wont even try to come near me. Its afraid because Jesus is bigger, greater and stronger.

What remains is to FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!

FIGHT TILL I WIN.

NO GOING BACK JUST KEEP MOVING FORWARD.

FEAR IN THE DUSTY ROAD

IM MOVIN TOWARD VICTORY.

AMEN TO THAT.

PRAISE THE LORD.

DANCE FOR THE LORD.

SING TO THE LORD.

YES LORD.

The Happy Kylie I know!

The story is that despite what this little child goes through she is still able to be happy hence the pictures and she really does bring joy in everyone.

For Suz!!!

IN the Storm

In the Storm

Is where I am

No goin back

Just goin forward

How long must i fight?

Why do i hold back

JUst go and follow

The sweet sound of Jesus

He will not let me go

No matter where i am

Or will be

There is only one thing to do

Believe

Believe in who He is

Forget how i feel

And just believe

For He is more powerful

Power to do all he can

To love and to cherish

For He is God

And wont let you go

He is here for you

Now and always

So dont you cry

He is holding you tight

Just know that he can

I that he can

He is there for you

When everyones is still

Just believe

If anything just believe

He got you and wont let you go

He Loves you more and more

He wont let you go!

Tell Me Why?

Sometimes i just want to find out the truth! Truth that no one really knows. Questions that no one could answer for me. I look for answers all the time and its in me all the time worrying about what really did happen. Why did my parents turned their back on me? Why? Why? Maybe not all the questions will be answered but is it that bad to ask and wonder what happened? Does it make it wrong? I guess im used to living on this right or wrong but what some people said right was before turned out to be wrong instead but is it my fault that it is what it is. Sometimes i still for some reason know that there was still some good in my father who used me. I always ask whether my father really meant to do what he did. And if he didnt mean to do i hold him accountable for what he did? What about God? Maybe im wrong, just maybe. I mean how can i not ask these questions that haunt me all the time.

So many people define who i am but what am suppose to know that it is me. Everybody says something different and that doesnt make sense. I listen to what God has to say but other people degrade that. Do i pay attention to that? Probably not because this is what God says:

Choosen

By

God

And

Precious

That is what i am holding on no matter what my dad said or a classmate said about me behind my back. And because God is bigger than any of them, i shouldnt blame myself for other people actions but giving that up is not that easy because for pretty much all my life i tended to do that because i didnt like people get hurt so i took the blame and got hurt instead and that is why i probably am still hurting so much. But i understand that i have to give all that to God and he will heal that no matter what Satan says because Satan is just not strong enough for God, he will just cripple down and bow down to God. God is ultimately the strongest person there is and no one can be just or merciful or stronger than God.

SATAN S THE TRUTH!

I love the TRUTH

SATAN STAY AWAY FROM ME!

SHUT UP SATAN YOU HAVE NO CONTROL IN MY LIFE.

I YOU SATAN.

YOU MADE ME SUFFER FOR LONG ENOUGH, GET AWAY FROM ME.

I YOU SATAN.

GO AWAY.

I WILL STAND IN THE TRUTH AND NOT IN YOUR LIES.

ROMANS 8:38-39

FOR I AM CONVINCED THAT NEITHER NOR LIFE NEITHER ANGELS NOR DEMONS, NEITHER THE PRESENT NOR THE FUTURE, NOR ANY POWERS, NEITHER HEIGHT NOR DEPTH, NOR ANYTHING ELSE IN ALL CREATION WILL BE ABLE TO SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD THAT IS IN CHRIST JESUS OUR LORD!!!!!!

Jesus Loves the Little Children!

How can we go on knowing somethin that isnt true in our midst? What if Satan wants us to believe one thing while Christ another? What if we are controled by fear do we have the say in that? So do we continue to fear till that fear controls us 100% or do we step up and fight? We even ignore what the Bible says about the fear.

1 John 4:18 says "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."

So i just hold on to something that is true and spit out at Satan every time he tries to do something like putting a lie into my mind. Seriously i have had enough of lies!!!!! I have the authority in Christ Jesus!

Romans 8
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus,because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and . For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in sinful man, in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit. Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind of sinful man is , but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; the sinful mind is hostile to God. It does not submit to God's law, nor can it do so. Those controlled by the sinful nature cannot please God. You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ. But if Christ is in you, your body is because of sin, yet your spirit is alive because of righteousness. And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the is living in you, he who raised Christ from the will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you. Therefore, brothers, we have an obligation—but it is not to the sinful nature, to live according to it. For if you live according to the sinful nature, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to the misdeeds of the body, you will live, because those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father." The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.
Future Glory I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed. For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God. We know that the whole creation has been groaning as in the pains of childbirth right up to the present time. Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what he already has? But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently. In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will. More Than Conquerors And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified. What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or ness or danger or sword? As it is written: "For your sake we face all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered." No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.


Just keep on holding and never give up because i know that Christ is just right there no matter what Satan might be able to say. Jesus will never be able to forsake me because he is the most amazing God there is ever! There is no one like him! There will be no one like him. There is only one Jesus Christ the most powerful and amazing God.