More Pain But Then who Cares

So who do explain to someone how much pain you are in when they even don't care? I know they dont. What do my adoptive parents care about any way. All this all is for nothing, but who cares that it hurts. Since i moved out and been to hospital they look at me with such hate that i think im done trying to build bridges but at least i can say i tried and i gave my best. Maybe i really dont have a family that i am one of those who are on their own but at least i know that when i am alone and live alone im happier and no one and i mean no one can tell me what to do with my life now. I can take care of myself more than other people can take care of me. When i told my adoptive mom that my adoptive dad scared me and i meant it because all men do because of all the abuse in my life but she said it couldn't be true so if she couldn't help me then how was i not supposed to go to hospital and get help? Sometimes i wonder what were they thinking? I dont knw honestly i question them but then what person in my position wouldn't!

Lies Exposed

What people try to hide so much is often found out one way or another? So how come is it so hard for my legal guardians to tell me the truth of why the heck they adopted me? Why? What is the real reason and purpose behind it all? They can't hide it forever and i will find out one way or another. They yell at me for hiding the truth from them yet it makes it ok for them not to tell the truth. Now what kind of psychology is that. Every human fiber of me is aching and has been for almost seven years now. So all the 'i love you' must never been real.... and maybe they are as worse as my biological parents they pretty much did same things as my biological parents let see... verbal abuse oh my plenty of tht, physical abuse---well i might not call it tht but they did get physical with me and my brother oh and emotional abuse that is what they are good at. They called my biological parents bad parents but they are not better and not even close. To escape their lies they emerse themselves in religious crap and not that im saying religion isnt good but im not even sure if they actually believe for if they did they would not act like they do. Pretending is something they are really good at. They put on a mask on and pretend like they are good but reality is they are bad and there is no way around tht. Should i go on? Hell yes! I can go into details but they will never want that information exposed. And i couldn't till now. And until i get answers from them for the adoption question especially im gona be posting things online till i get those answers. Starting today!