Tell Me Why?

Sometimes i just want to find out the truth! Truth that no one really knows. Questions that no one could answer for me. I look for answers all the time and its in me all the time worrying about what really did happen. Why did my parents turned their back on me? Why? Why? Maybe not all the questions will be answered but is it that bad to ask and wonder what happened? Does it make it wrong? I guess im used to living on this right or wrong but what some people said right was before turned out to be wrong instead but is it my fault that it is what it is. Sometimes i still for some reason know that there was still some good in my father who used me. I always ask whether my father really meant to do what he did. And if he didnt mean to do i hold him accountable for what he did? What about God? Maybe im wrong, just maybe. I mean how can i not ask these questions that haunt me all the time.

So many people define who i am but what am suppose to know that it is me. Everybody says something different and that doesnt make sense. I listen to what God has to say but other people degrade that. Do i pay attention to that? Probably not because this is what God says:

Choosen

By

God

And

Precious

That is what i am holding on no matter what my dad said or a classmate said about me behind my back. And because God is bigger than any of them, i shouldnt blame myself for other people actions but giving that up is not that easy because for pretty much all my life i tended to do that because i didnt like people get hurt so i took the blame and got hurt instead and that is why i probably am still hurting so much. But i understand that i have to give all that to God and he will heal that no matter what Satan says because Satan is just not strong enough for God, he will just cripple down and bow down to God. God is ultimately the strongest person there is and no one can be just or merciful or stronger than God.

SATAN S THE TRUTH!

I love the TRUTH

SATAN STAY AWAY FROM ME!

SHUT UP SATAN YOU HAVE NO CONTROL IN MY LIFE.

I YOU SATAN.

YOU MADE ME SUFFER FOR LONG ENOUGH, GET AWAY FROM ME.

I YOU SATAN.

GO AWAY.

I WILL STAND IN THE TRUTH AND NOT IN YOUR LIES.

ROMANS 8:38-39

FOR I AM CONVINCED THAT NEITHER NOR LIFE NEITHER ANGELS NOR DEMONS, NEITHER THE PRESENT NOR THE FUTURE, NOR ANY POWERS, NEITHER HEIGHT NOR DEPTH, NOR ANYTHING ELSE IN ALL CREATION WILL BE ABLE TO SEPARATE US FROM THE LOVE OF GOD THAT IS IN CHRIST JESUS OUR LORD!!!!!!