I need JESUS

I think that some mistakes are made without even knowing that they are wrong. I have been taught lots of lies that are mistakes by my biological parents. And it seems that time is against me. There is still time to change. I see my life messed up but what gets me is that Jesus doesnt see my life as messed up. Not only that Jesus loves me more than anything and that gives me some hope. Hope that there is still hope left in the life that i live. Often for me hope is not easy to find. I want my life to be different. I thought i can handle everything on my own but the thing is that i cant. That is the truth. What i am looking for is the truth. How do i find this truth???????? Can you find the truth on your own????? Probably not because if you dont know what the truth is how do you know what you are looking for......

I thought life was a simple thing before it got shattered. What it is now is a shattered life that seems to be broken that i cannot fix. It seems that it is broken forever but the truth is that through Jesus Christ life can be transformed into something different. something that people cant separate. I love Jesus more than anything in this world, but my relationship with Jesus is broken because of my life that was shattered. But here i am trying to get close to someone with my past life that is a terrible thing to write or even think about. I am fighting for something real for the first time in my life at least for something that makes sense now. Without Jesus i have nothing and i feel empty. Over the year i have developed this thirst for Jesus and everytime i choose not to listen to the voice of truth i feel empty and sad because of the emptiness in me.

I wish i could forget the past but the thing is i can get healing from it. The only place i can find peace is in Jesus Christ alone. I know in the end that everything is going to be alright......