What If

I had always wondered if you're life was different than you experienced would you be totaly different or are you going to be the same person as you are now. What if one thing was changed in your past would it make you a hater or would be just the same. People always have told me that crying makes you weak but does it??? What if a person dies and you cry does that make you weak??? But what if you're not strong to admit that we are all weak in our own ways??? Ever thought of that. Are some things in life inacceptable to do or is it that everything is good??? What if there no if?? The truth is that i have been fighting the enemy and it is never easy for me. I get to the point where i am asking these what if questions but i also ask the question of who to trut. If there is no other person you can trust at least trust Jesus for he can do more than anyone on this earth. Defiance is not a good thing either, yes sometimes people do let you down but dont that emotion control you, make you hate the person rather bless that person love them as Christ showed love towards you when he died for you on the cross. Know that i defied God when i hated the country i am in, i had hatred towards my adoptive parents, and on and on but God did forgive me and that is so important for me to know that God did forgive and that i am free. It is Jesus that i can never forget.