Fear

I always ask myself "why do i fear when i know that Jesus is victorious?" I have never been able to answer that question because i dont even know how to answer it for one. I have to say throughout my life i have been pretty afraid of a lot of things but one in particular is Satan and to me he comes in different ways, he pretends to be someone that is not here, he lies to me about life and Jesus and he is a liar and i hate him. This week i did have fear because i know that i am about to fight a big battle against it and i think it knows that and it is scared so it is going to get me scared but you know i have friends that back me up and i am so thankful for them. They are a blessing. For the last couple days i have been down and looking down on myself but as i am reading "the Journey of Desire" I realize that my desire is to love Jesus more than anything. I love Him and i constantly want more of Him everyday. Imagine, Jesus protecting you every single day, minute and second of your life. I believe it because He protected me before i knew Him, He was there in my suffering. He was there when no one loved me. He was there when i was alone. He was there where i thought everything is about to go down. He was there when no one else was.