Testimony

I was born in November 4th, 1989 in Russia. My parents were both alcoholics. They didn't really care about kids and from the very beginning they showed me the world of abuse. By age 2, i was used as a toy at whom people laughed because a small child was a afraid of and her own parents. My own father used me as an entertainment to cut me with a knife and laugh at it. What i saw was over six years. Not did only i started to believe things like that there is no such thing as love, that anger, rage and getting back at someone is good. For six years i lived in fear of men and who i can trust. My parents hated me when i done nothing wrong. They used me to blame when something went wrong. This hatred ruined our relationship. At age 6, i got put into an orphanage in which i was safer, i had shelter and food. I stayed in the orphanage till the age of 11. Although being safe was good, i did not trust anybody. I started to hate myself. I cut myself and no one really cared. At age 11, on May 2001 i got adopted and i had go to court and say i want to be adopted and i said "yes" because i knew my brother Andrei needed someone who would love him and care for him. I got to America full of hatred and Glenn and Connie really didnt understand me and neither did i understand them. 2 years later, i went to do a prayer where you could be a Christian and take communion. But the fact was i really didnt care what that meant i just wanted to be cool like everyone else and call myself a Christian it was not till February of 2007 did i get saved for real where Jesus became my Lord, God and Friend. Even though the first 6 years was a to me Jesus had a plan for me to rescue me. And He did. In July 2007, i went to tacoma washington and had a lot of breakthrough. Jesus saved me through my darkest nightmares. Now i am crazy for Jesus because of what He had done for me. And nothing is going to separate me from Jesus.